Getting Back On Track

Wednesday, 5 September 2018

I've been self employed for just over four years now, it has definitely been a roller coaster of a ride full of learning curves thrown in with the ups and downs. This year has been bit of a down, up until last Christmas things were on the up and and up and then suddenly it was like I was cut off, business plummeted! Now I know we're not supposed to talk about the downsides of business but I think that is rubbish, all we see are the good stories and successes but we rarely see the journey that goes with it which is definitely not smooth sailing all the way. And if it is, well that's cool but for the majority it can be a bit daunting, as only seeing successes can make you feel a bit of a failure, even if the intention is the opposite but I'm not here to talk about that. So things were going great and then they weren't and to be honest it left me a little baffled. Of course the economic uncertainty and the fluctuating pound is probably not helping but the sudden crash in business left me a little wounded and out of sorts. So I decided with the unscheduled break to try and make good use of my time.

When I became self employed I didn't really have a plan, well I had a half a plan but I had to make a decision, carry on in a job that was mentally and physically breaking me, or jump ship and take a chance. I took the chance and in a bid to get going I did what I knew and that was to make things, it was better than doing nothing. I get that not everybody has those options, trust me I was at breaking point and it was always my plan to be a freelance creative but in a job that left me with no mental energy at the  end of the day, it was hard to set that up on the side. I saw an opportunity and took it, to be honest I would not have been able to do that without he support of my partner and for that I'm very grateful.

My plan was always to do art and writing but I started making handmade items instead because that was what I could do with the resources I had at that time. I also got into selling vintage because that is something else I knew how to do and it served it's purpose for that time. So with things quietening down it gave me a chance to revisit and rethink my career plan and finally get back on track with my original goals, and I've spent a good part of the year clearing out the old to make way for the new. Now that is pretty much done, I have created enough space both physically and mentally to finally start. Apart of me keeps putting it off because of fear, I've had so many failures and things not work out, it's like can I take one more hot but you have to keep trying. It's important to bear in mind that your passions may not always be the making of you, mostly it's down to timing but sometimes things are just not meant to be but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try, right?

So I have to learn to draw and paint again, it's been so long my skills are very rusty. And I need to start putting aside dedicated time for writing and other things. I also want to get back to making my clothes again, everything has been on hold and the longer I leave it the more practice I'm going to need, so really I just need to get on with it. I have some online courses I've dug out out to give me a kick start. One is a Seamwork build your wardrobe course, the other is a Gala Darling radical self love art journal course, I have also been planning some projects of my own. One is a painting project, I think I've nearly pinned down the topic but needs just a tiny bit more refining, although I haven't decided if it will just 100 paintings or 100 consecutive days project. The other is a 100 hoops project which won't be done daily because I can't stitch that fast in that much detail but it is a good way to use up the 100 embroidery hoops I have hoarded in my work room! Eventually I will want to sell them in my web shop, I'm trying to move away from relying on Etsy now that it's just a free for all and focusing on investors instead of sellers! So my plan is to open a stand alone probably on big cartel of shopify, haven't decided yet.

The thing with getting back on track is sometimes it's just best to just dive in and get on with it. I have months where I'm not inspired to make anything and then today I wanted to make all the things, which is good because I need to clear out the last of my supplies which I'm using for a small Halloween and Christmas collection. I'm literally using what I have left over, so that's gonna be fun and very shiny collection (seriously I have a lot of rhinestones to use up!). I also have a lot of half started projects to finish but on the plus side my goal of clearing out all the old stuff by the end of the year looks to be on track, especially now the weather has cooled down and I can also get back to knitting in the evenings.

Anyway I think I've rambled enough, suffice to say I have enough to get on with for the moment, I will be back with updates soon!

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